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Today is the first class after the national holiday! I miss it very much, and I enjoy it very much! I miss the class and miss the feeling of pure and service attitude!

Xianxian said her husband and her spent last night reading and discussing about virtues and family matters of the faith, wusen said his child told his grandparent to say a prayer when he has difficulty.I admire all these simple happiness in life, he never let me know all the small things in life and I am so scared to ask him anything, small things can make him upset! Without face to face communication and getting along, I don't even dare to ask him anything...

It feels wierd, not easy compare with those days of not talking...

But I think I released his worries and problem by doing this way. He is too nice to end up by himself, I just helped!

It's still raining outside, today I am suppose to go to expo, but now I don't know if I should continue to go, but I am afraid I have to go, once I don't do that the company will know that I didn't check in the tickets they gave me...

Today is the 3rd day I didn't talk to him, so far I am good, I think I can do it. He sent me messages early in the morning, I didn't reply, I think I am going to keep it unless I have to talk about it. Why is it always my mistake he doesn't hear anything from me? Why he doesn't send anything to me? One of the most important issue we have is truthfulness, he is not real to me, he hides himself so much from me, he has no news to me he has no personal story to me, he doesn't want me know a lot of things! That's the basic problem we have, I don't want get marry with someone who has so much secrets and can't share with his wife!

Nomatter what is happening, I really appreciate we can at least

I talked to Zehra yesterday online, she asked me how is everything going with me? And I told her my confusion about the relationship I had, her sales manager asked her to tell me that he is not going to marry me, that's for sure! he just needs someone to help him with the business, he told me to really take it seriously! So now I can get all these puzzles clear now. Even I knew he was real for sometimes, but for sure he is not going to take it seriously! Ok, I am prepared!

I went to eleen's birthday party this evening, I met the ex coworker stone, he is working in the French company enjoyed himself of being an engineer, not talking to people, but working with machines only, but most of